So much love . . .

We are blessed beyond measure to have been given the gift of so much love from him, but because of that we have such an overwhelming void now.  He had so much love for us,  but that made it too hard for him to leave this life we had.  We often were told by others, that his strength and determination to continue to fight was a testament of his profound love for us.  So much love.

He was my rock, my strength, my reason for each day.  People would say I was so strong for caring for him, doing everything for him and our children - I was strong because of him.
So many amazing memories together, simple pleasures of time together - now mourning so greatly the loss of more time.  Longing to be in his arms again.  So much love.

He was an incredibly caring and strong father to our children - leading by example, modeling his faith.  He was so very proud of each of them and told them often.  He loved them each in  their unique way, and celebrated their individual qualities and  strengths.  He loved to see them doing what they love, and wanted so much to be here for more of their future.  So much love.

I don't want to think of what's next, so we focus on the now.  This is us now - crying often, but smiling and laughing too.  Remembering so much love.
Knowing we are held up in thoughts and prayers of so very many people.  Seeing so many lives that Wayne has touched - overwhelmed by the numbers at the visitations and funeral.  So much love.
And most importantly, standing firmly in our faith, that our heavenly Father is holding us up when we can no longer stand.  So much love.