Wayne found this picture probably a year ago, and was absolutely taken by the image.  A cloud formation that looks like the hand of God, reaching down, "holding the world".   He immediately showed it to me so I could copy and paste it so we could keep it. -
Well, we hold fast to the fact that the hand of our Father in Heaven is keeping hold of us now.

Today was Wayne's biopsy day, things did not go well.  He started the day off earlier than usual for him lately, and right off the bat he "felt a little off".  We got Brian off to school then headed to the hospital, and made it to the Day Surgery waiting room.  Got settled in there, when Wayne suddenly felt faint, got lots of attention from the awesome nurses there, a brief loss of consciousness [for my nurse peeps, they had the phone in hand to call the code], but he started responding again.  A quick IV and fluid bolus, and his vital signs started to improve.  Dr. Middlebrook decided to go ahead with the biopsy once Wayne stabilized.  We got down for the biopsy, but they were unable to get it - too much pain and spasm, so the doctor decided it best not to proceed, since the risk outweighed the benefit.  If for future treatments they are needing a tissue sample, he will put Wayne under general anesthetic for the procedure.

Definitely not how we planned today to go. 
The plan now is to continue with the meds as we are doing [the biopsy wouldn't have changed any treatment anyways], but now they just won't have as clear of answers as far as aggressiveness of the cancer.  We will be relying on blood work results to determine if the meds are working. 

Wayne is doing ok with this all.  Other than today he has been feeling a little better each day.  Another doctor specializing in pain control was here earlier this week, she was great and very reassuring that there are lots of options out there yet to keep Wayne as pain free and still 'functional' as possible.  She tweaked a few of his meds, and his pain is definitely a little less.  He has also been able to be up more each day, able to sit and visit, work on some model cars with Brian and even sit with us at the dinner table sometimes [amazing how you take for granted these little things, but now are so excited when they happen!]  Our family doctor is coming over next week to check in, and help us with all the paperwork - there's so many things to think about now, my mind can be a little jumbled at times!

Our kids are amazing us everyday, we are so blessed to have such caring and strong children. We have our 'sad' times, and that's okay too, we still have each other and we're going to cherish every moment we have.  Like we keep saying "we've still got some memories to make!"

Thanks again to everyone for everything, there is really too many to list, but know that we hold on dearly to every message, thought, prayer and deed.  The generosity of so many continues to overwhelm us!  A special thank you though to my amazing co-workers, you guys are too much!!!, our dear friends Mike and Deanna, and of course the other half of our 'DeBummel' family - there are no words.

Praying for continued strength for us all, and the ability to trust in God as we continue to take this journey one day at a time.  [gotta say that I struggle with that some days, as most of you know I'm a planner, I'm type A, I need to be in the know and in control - there is nothing planned or organized about this!]

With all our Love and deepest thanks